As the babies due date gets closer and closer Jonathan and I have begun to acknowledge more and more that our lives will forever be changed. And truthfully it does scare me. Possibly because this was not a planned pregnancy. As thrilled as we are we can't honestly say we were ready, but of course we wouldn't change things. Believe me most of my pregnancy has been filled with thoughts of pure joy and bliss. I have been anxiously waiting for the arrival of our son. Now that it is actually weeks away the magnitude of it all is setting in. Yes, I knew parenting and bringing a child into the world was a big deal and not to be taken lightly- but when you are so close to experiencing it all for yourself it definitely is overwhelming and you think about all the things you haven't done but want to do and you know that with a child as your #1 responsibility that those things will be harder to achieve in the long run and will be placed on the back burner. And it's fine- who knows maybe our little boy will push us both to be the best we can be so that we can give him a wonderful life full of great experiences and opportunities. Next to picking your spouse and getting married having a child (children) is a big ol' step in life and I am bound to freak out a bit right? Believe me, my excitement and anticipation outweighs all my worries and when our little boy arrives I know the joy Jon and I feel will be worth it all. For now I just need to remember to breathe- or at least try my best since the little man is making even that quite difficult at this point.
Friday, August 1, 2008
Life Changing
As the babies due date gets closer and closer Jonathan and I have begun to acknowledge more and more that our lives will forever be changed. And truthfully it does scare me. Possibly because this was not a planned pregnancy. As thrilled as we are we can't honestly say we were ready, but of course we wouldn't change things. Believe me most of my pregnancy has been filled with thoughts of pure joy and bliss. I have been anxiously waiting for the arrival of our son. Now that it is actually weeks away the magnitude of it all is setting in. Yes, I knew parenting and bringing a child into the world was a big deal and not to be taken lightly- but when you are so close to experiencing it all for yourself it definitely is overwhelming and you think about all the things you haven't done but want to do and you know that with a child as your #1 responsibility that those things will be harder to achieve in the long run and will be placed on the back burner. And it's fine- who knows maybe our little boy will push us both to be the best we can be so that we can give him a wonderful life full of great experiences and opportunities. Next to picking your spouse and getting married having a child (children) is a big ol' step in life and I am bound to freak out a bit right? Believe me, my excitement and anticipation outweighs all my worries and when our little boy arrives I know the joy Jon and I feel will be worth it all. For now I just need to remember to breathe- or at least try my best since the little man is making even that quite difficult at this point.
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No one's ever 100% "ready" - and our plans are just made to be screwed up, anyway ;-). But welcoming your precious little baby boy is awesome (in both the original sense and the modern sense). You've got it right - remember to breathe, and be ready to learn more about everyday miracles and our loving Heavenly Father than you ever thought possible! :-)
ReplyDeleteHeather, Chris and I wanted to tell you that everyboys knows that you two weill be wonderful parents and not to worry. God wouldn't bless you both with such a miracle if He didn't think that you couldn't handle it. No one's ever ready. That's what I hear anyway. LOL You'll be great sis! I'm anxious for you too!
ReplyDeleteWe can't wait for another nephew!
Love ya!
So, about a week before we had our first babe, Joe and I were lying on the couch one night watching a movie, nothing out of the ordinary, and I totally broke down. Full on, bawling, sobbing like a baby. Why? Because it kind of hit me all of a sudden, that in a week or less, it would never be just me and Joe again. (At least not for a good 20+ years). And it made me a little sad to think we wouldn't be able to travel on a whim, or do late night slurpee runs on the scooter together, or just enjoy some peace and quiet together right when we needed/wanted it. I think what you are going through is totally normal, and a part of the process, and kudos for being honest enough to say it. Not everything in life is positive and beautiful, and so few ppl actually have the gall to be truthful about those moments in their life.
ReplyDeleteYes, very normal. And yes, good job begin honest about it. When your baby comes it will be the HARDest thing ever, but also the most absolutely amazing experience you can even imagine. Those words don't even do it justice. You'll be great, though! Really great.
ReplyDeleteoh darlin, I know the feeling, as from all the other's comments, everyone knows that same feeling. I constantly have an anxious feeling thinking about a 2nd baby running around, and we're still in our 2 bdrm duplex.....
ReplyDeleteI hate that feelins of "not knowing whats going to happen..." Im so happy your mom will be with you for a while though. When are you guys moving?
I agree with all the comments above. It is a life changing event, but I'm sure you'll both be awesome and great parents. And it is a wonderful experience.
ReplyDeleteI think it is totally normally to freak out about having a baby. It is truly life altering and it is scary to think about that. I think when I started getting closer I was most freaked out about labor/delivery. You know all those horror stories. I don't think you need to feel bad for being freaked out though. You are just a normal first time pregnant women. :)
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