Writing in the hopes that it'll bring sleep.

I've been sleeping really poorly lately.  I think it's because I'm stressed and have a lot on my brain.  Soooo I figure I'd do a brain dump on here and hope that if I get it on paper I can get it off my brain. 

This year has been hard.  Quite the roller coaster of a year.    And just when things were looking up, without fail, something would always happen to knock us back down.  Our saving grace (no pun intended) this year has been our savings.  Luckily every year we take the majority of our tax return and put it into savings.  And boy did we need it this year.  The garage door broke.  The fridge broke.  My car broke.  My car broke again.  And it seems it's going to end on a low note. Jon got a raise...yay.....oh wait, our insurance is going up by $250 a month!  SO much for the raise that doesn't even cover the increase!  Ugh. The car is broken in December, before Christmas, and right before January, which is when we start to pay more for insurance.  Not only is the car broken, but it's at the point where we need to just stop putting money into it.  We need a new car.  We can't afford a new car.  We're still paying off Jon's car.....cause he needed a new car at the end of last year (?).  Pathetic, but seriously, we can't afford two car payments, especially now that our   insurance is going up.  We're already figuring out how to cut costs to cover the stinking insurance.  And I need a car.  I haven't had a car for like a week now, and I am going crazy.  It's just a frustrating situation.  Feeling like you just can't get ahead in life.  Always feeling a financial strain, which just adds to all the other stresses of life.  I feel like every year ends with me saying, "OK, this next year things are going to turnaround.  Things are going to get better."  But here we are, 81/2 years in, and man, there's always something.  I just keep waiting for relief to come.   A break.  I certainly hope 2015 brings that.  I guess it's comforting knowing that each and every year we manage, we make it through.  So if anything, I know somehow someway, we'll get through whatever comes our way.  But man alive, I could sure use an easier year.  Please let 2015 be it!!  (If you are reading this, you're welcome to offer up prayers on our behalf!) 

And in happier news, I am working on birthday posts for the boys....yes, I know their birthdays were 3-4 months ago, but hey, at least I am getting around to it!  So if anyone still reads this blog, I swear I am done with the heavy life spew, and will proceed with regular posting.